I’m usually a happy person. 🙂 But as I write this, I’m coming from a very dark place. Figuratively speaking, that is..
Two of the people close to me have cancer. 😦
One – she’s the President of the Real Estate Association where I am a Board Member of. She’s like a mother to me so I feel really sad to hear that her breast cancer has gone to her lungs already. Yes, it’s not good. But she’s still fighting. And now, she’s in Manila for more medication.
And then the other one is my sister’s mother inlaw. She was in the hospital for a few days. But the doctors had to send her home because there’s nothing they can do anymore. In other words, she is gonna die in the next few days. I just realized that when you have breast cancer and your whole body swells, it means that it’s bad news. That once the swelling subsides, then comes death.
I feel terrible. And I don’t know what to say.
Except that I have more realizations. That life is fleeting. And that in the end, nothing matters.
I asked my husband the other day, why are we working so hard? Why indeed, when it’s just the two of us. We have no children to leave everything behind to when our time comes. I guess, all our properties will be left to our nephews and nieces. 🙂
I realized that we have to slow down. And spend more time on things and people that matter. Work if we must. But it shouldn’t be the most important thing in our life. How sad, right?
But then again, we’re both workaholic. So slowing down isn’t easy. I don’t know if this happened to you. Too much holiday feels like I’m ready to crawl on the walls. 🙂 So yep, that’s not an easy task for us.
Okay, so I’ll try to go to sleep. 🙂 Maybe I’ll feel better when I wake up…
Sorry my friends, for making you my sounding board. 🙂
Lea C. Walker